If the world ended in December, I wouldn't have any regrets.

To be honest, I know I haven't achieved much. Plenty of other people have done greater things at the same age, and meanwhile I'm lying here in this ditch. Even if I stopped comparing myself to others, I just know I have the potential to do so much more. This is not my zenith. All I really lack is the drive to exert myself. I could do so many things if only I could put my heart into them fully all the time.

However, I don't think that the past is something to be changed. Whether you believe that things happen for a reason or not, they still make you who you are today. And I may not be completely satisfied with myself, but I would think that it's mostly a healthy dissatisfaction: I mean, if you didn't think that there were any parts of you that needed improvement, you'd never be able to grow.

If you looked at the matter from another side, what would you even change if you could, anyway? How would you know that you would like your life like that better? Everything happens but once, and so there's no way of knowing what a different decision would result in. All I can do is be content with the past, and make peace with it.

All I can do now is to live my life whilst continually moving towards what I believe is better. I may not always take steps forward, but I am hoping that the summation is positive.

So come if you will, apocalypse. I'm ready.