I'm tempted.

Damn social networking for providing a place for us to let the world hear anything we say. I'm attracted to the blank space; compelled by the urge to just type something; anything. Something useless; passive-aggressive; unbearably lonely; irrational. Disgusting and pathetic.

And yet I know that the moment I free those words from my mind and into the digital world, I'll get called KSP. Because really, I'm just craving attention again. Craving the comfort of people caring and being close to me. But nobody wants to be around sad people; nobody wants to go onto Twitter and Facebook and read enigmatic posts by people who are too weak to snap out of whatever ugly mood they're in.

The thing is, people always leave.

I feel happy for a while, maybe at peace, and then a trigger comes into my life and I'm suddenly trapped in this inescapable vortex of emotions again. I feel jealous for no reason; alone yet again in a world where people are nomadic. There are rarely any people who will settle down beside you forever; they'll always spot greener pastures and then fade away.

Honestly, I can't say I've never been one of those people. Lord knows how many people I've left behind. I was always the one who neglected the friendship. Yes, after quite a while I'd remember what we used to have, but by that time the distance would be far too big to breach with a simple "Hello, I miss you." The coldness would have sunken in long ago.

I don't know how to get out of this.

Maybe I should just lose myself in something and wait for it to pass.